effektz
20+ Year Contributor
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- Apr 12, 2005
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Milwaukee,
Wisconsin
> >Brad,
> >
> >It would be difficult for me to be any more miserable right now, I
> >feel like the worst person ever. First, let me start by saying that I
> >am truly truly sorry, and I hate myself for hurting you. Of all the
> >people in the whole entire world, you were honestly the last person
> >that I would ever want to wrong in any way. There is no excuse at all
> >for anything that happened, so I won't even try other than to say all
> >of us had WAY too much to drink, and I did a stupid thing. I can
> >handle you being pissed at me, I absolutely deserve it, I can even
> >handle the ugly words that were exchanged between us, what I can't
> >handle is thinking that you see me as a different person. It is weird,
> >I feel like I just went through a horrible break up or something. The
> >world looked funny yesterday, I couldn't crack a smile if you paid me,
> >there are songs I can't listen to, and I just ! feel beyond crushed. I
> >don't know if you meant everything you said to me, and I am hoping
> >that you didn't. I know that I was wrong on many levels, but I am also
> >hoping that this is something that we can deal with. I know it sounds
> >totally crazy and stupid, but you have come to play such a significant
> >role in my life, I can't imagine my days without you. It is totally
> >strange and weird to say that, and you could say that my behavior
> >didn't reflect that, and you would be correct. I hate feeling like you
> >hate me, and I hate feeling like all of your friends think I am a
> >terrible person, because I am not. I know there is nothing I can say or
> > do to take back what happened, but I just want you to know that
> >fighting with you was just about the worst thing I could have ever
> >imagined. It was right up there with one of the ugliest nights of my life,
> >and I would give anything in the world to rewind and fix it.
> >
> >I am not sure if you will respond to this, part of me thinks that you
> >won't. If not today, then maybe some other time. Also, thanks for
> >getting my stuff together, although I think my sunglasses are still at
> >your house, if you could keep your eyes peeled for them that would be
> >great. I can't even focus or work today, I can't eat, I seriously feel
> >like it was an ugly break up, and I am hoping against hopes that it
> >was not that and you are not done with me. Please don't cut me off, I
> >really don't think I can handle that.
> >
> >I am so sorry.
> >
> >Elizabeth
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> >
> >It would be difficult for me to be any more miserable right now, I
> >feel like the worst person ever. First, let me start by saying that I
> >am truly truly sorry, and I hate myself for hurting you. Of all the
> >people in the whole entire world, you were honestly the last person
> >that I would ever want to wrong in any way. There is no excuse at all
> >for anything that happened, so I won't even try other than to say all
> >of us had WAY too much to drink, and I did a stupid thing. I can
> >handle you being pissed at me, I absolutely deserve it, I can even
> >handle the ugly words that were exchanged between us, what I can't
> >handle is thinking that you see me as a different person. It is weird,
> >I feel like I just went through a horrible break up or something. The
> >world looked funny yesterday, I couldn't crack a smile if you paid me,
> >there are songs I can't listen to, and I just ! feel beyond crushed. I
> >don't know if you meant everything you said to me, and I am hoping
> >that you didn't. I know that I was wrong on many levels, but I am also
> >hoping that this is something that we can deal with. I know it sounds
> >totally crazy and stupid, but you have come to play such a significant
> >role in my life, I can't imagine my days without you. It is totally
> >strange and weird to say that, and you could say that my behavior
> >didn't reflect that, and you would be correct. I hate feeling like you
> >hate me, and I hate feeling like all of your friends think I am a
> >terrible person, because I am not. I know there is nothing I can say or
> > do to take back what happened, but I just want you to know that
> >fighting with you was just about the worst thing I could have ever
> >imagined. It was right up there with one of the ugliest nights of my life,
> >and I would give anything in the world to rewind and fix it.
> >
> >I am not sure if you will respond to this, part of me thinks that you
> >won't. If not today, then maybe some other time. Also, thanks for
> >getting my stuff together, although I think my sunglasses are still at
> >your house, if you could keep your eyes peeled for them that would be
> >great. I can't even focus or work today, I can't eat, I seriously feel
> >like it was an ugly break up, and I am hoping against hopes that it
> >was not that and you are not done with me. Please don't cut me off, I
> >really don't think I can handle that.
> >
> >I am so sorry.
> >
> >Elizabeth
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