dsmskyline, looks like he'll be one day older then my son.

thats ####ed up that she wouldn't let you name him Talon, thats a cool name.. Who cares if its the name of your car too....

Chris, thanks alot, actually thank all of you. Its still difficult. But I'm starting to have more clarity in my life now days... I mean since my wreck, I lost my house which I moved back in with the parents, I signed over the grand am, still have the eclipse ofcourse. But because of the pain from the accident, haven't been able to get a job... But moving back home seems to help me put my priorities in order. Get all the drama out of my life. I haven't been to any races (non legal type, that I used to organize in Albuquerque) since I moved back home, or socialized with anyone I knew out there. As much as its fun, I belive now when I get my settlement ( I'm getting 75grand), I can buy a second vehicle to support the build of the Eclipse, pay off all my bills, and store the rest of the cash in the bank and locate a new job and get my self back in order, and hopefully find a nice girl that I could possibly marry. Its great!

Also, how did I work on things with my ex? Well, Kayleigh... I proposed last November, broke up with her 8 months ago because she's a nut. I mean, I'm like a young Dr. Phil. I watch that show all the time, and I finish his sentences and agree on everything he says to people on their life problems. I can usually fix peoples problems, but I can not figure out Kayleigh, in fact she makes me want to shoot myself because how stupid the things she starts fights over, is about. And I just got fed up... I mean she'd bi*** about the most idiotic things known to man... and then it got to the point that while we were having sex... she'd start fighting with me... is that? So that was it, I broke up with her, but stayed around to support her during the pregnancy... and I convinced her that Adoption was the best thing. I was the reason he was placed. She wanted to keep him for her own selfish needs. Even tho she's like insanely abusive, and will have no way to feed him... she wouldn't even change his diaper. So yeah... Her and I are getting along better now that I'm not around... But I'm not going back to her.

Anyways, thanks guys for all the great words. It helps out a lot to get through this ordeal.

take the kid and move out of the state! cool name

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I just noticed someone changed my title... I love the "Pictures of my new Talon".

Apparently, from some of the people that claimed to be my friends, think I should either be put in jail, or have my nuts cut off, for getting Kayleigh Pregnate. And not raising him myself, alone, and unemployed and homeless, makes me a prick beyond belief.

Was I seriously wrong? Was I wrong to want a child with my girlfriend (at the time) without knowing what the future brings (my wreck and almost loss of life)?

No, my man, you are not wrong. My heart bleeds for you, in this time of pain. I am a father of two. I had my kids young as well (22 years old). But I had a steady income and the doctor found out that my wife was on a time limit for kids. It was a now or never deal, so I decided to have him. After my first kid, everything was put on hold and my life was turned upside down. I barely have time or money for the Talon. But for me, it is a worthy trade-off. Since I had my first kid, I became more reliable as an employee, mended the failing marriage, and became right with God.

Instead of my kid ruining my life, my kid made me realize the error of my ways and I had a desire to become a better person so I could provide for and protect him. I wish that it could have worked out for you and I pray that your burden doesn't get any heavier as you grow and move through life. I wish you the best of luck and hope you get things on track in your life.

you were so not in the wrong... it was something that you were hoping for be for. and in my opinnion god works in mysterious ways. and thats what makes pregnancy so special you may want it now and it wont happen and when you've givin up it supprises you, yes this accident mestings up but its not your fault for what happened. i respect you for making such a hard deccision for the BENIFFET of your SON and not yourself. you chose to give him a better life than for you could give him right now. if you need my help at all for anything you have my number an i only live like 5 min away.

Dont let those people get you down. They dont seem to understand wanting a good life for your kid.
The fact that your so upset shows how much you care. Atleast you love him and did it for the right reason, not just because you didnt want him.

Here's some designing I have done, the main design minus his face is my new tattoo. Going to have the special text going down the middle of my chest, and the rest off to the side of my chest over my heart.

thats awesome dude

knight007 said:

thats awesome dude

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+1
Great design

The white would end up ofcourse black... Since I'm white enough ...