Blog Title: crimsondragon
My world crumbles again
Posted 12-22-2008 at 08:06 PM by crimsondragon
So I woke up this morning at like 7 in the morning to my aunt screaming for us to get up. I'm in a daze so I'm like whatever but I heard something about my grandma. Now don't get me wrong, I love her wholly but she's been in the hospital more times than I can count and she always comes out fine. I figured she must have had another usual plethora of problems. I grudgingly get out of bed really tired since I was up all night till 5 playing DiRT. I get ready and drive my mom and aunt out to NYC. I'm just wondering what it is this time.
My aunt is trying to figure out what's going on and what hospital she's been taken to. Somewhere along the way, my aunt gets the phone call from the nurse aid who takes care of my grandma and all I hear in the back is "WHAT?!" and then just sobs. At that point something equivalent to a knife went right through my heart. This wasn't the usual time where she fell, got sick, had internal organ problems, etc etc. No, this time it was the real deal. Death wrote the ticket and cashed it in.
Of course I'm just thinking "what..." and the tears soon start coming. But it quickly turns to anger. Of all the times in the year, why ####ing Christmas. The one time where everyone gets together and enjoy the time. It was absolutely unbelievable. My cousins from HK were coming in late February to visit. My Christmas will be ruined this year and all the years after. The rest of the way there was just depressing.
The hospital visit was no better. We met up with my younger aunt who was there already and filled us in. We visited the body. My other aunt, a strong woman she is, hands rough and calloused from years of work, once slapped me across the face and gave me a nosebleed. At the sight of my grandma lying there on the hospital bed broke her down completely. She cried like a 5 year old calling for mommy to wake up again. To wake up so on Wednesday we could have hot pot. It went on for 5 minutes more with my younger aunt trying to use logic and reasoning and eventually just pulled her out of there. My mother just kept running her hand through her mother's hair while silently crying. I stood there absorbing it all in until the walls broke and tears started streaming down my own face. When it was time to leave, I kissed my grandmother on the forehead and said I'll miss her.
The rest of the day was spent preparing the funeral arrangements, having lunch, packing up the stuff at my grandma's apartment and with me crying myself to sleep on the sofa that I usually sleep on when I visit. The only peace I have is that grandpa escorted her and now they are in the fields with Max, watching him run around. Hopefully I'll see it someday as well.
R.I.P. Poon Lin Heung
6/16/1927 - 12/22/2008
A fine, compassionate mother to all.
My aunt is trying to figure out what's going on and what hospital she's been taken to. Somewhere along the way, my aunt gets the phone call from the nurse aid who takes care of my grandma and all I hear in the back is "WHAT?!" and then just sobs. At that point something equivalent to a knife went right through my heart. This wasn't the usual time where she fell, got sick, had internal organ problems, etc etc. No, this time it was the real deal. Death wrote the ticket and cashed it in.
Of course I'm just thinking "what..." and the tears soon start coming. But it quickly turns to anger. Of all the times in the year, why ####ing Christmas. The one time where everyone gets together and enjoy the time. It was absolutely unbelievable. My cousins from HK were coming in late February to visit. My Christmas will be ruined this year and all the years after. The rest of the way there was just depressing.
The hospital visit was no better. We met up with my younger aunt who was there already and filled us in. We visited the body. My other aunt, a strong woman she is, hands rough and calloused from years of work, once slapped me across the face and gave me a nosebleed. At the sight of my grandma lying there on the hospital bed broke her down completely. She cried like a 5 year old calling for mommy to wake up again. To wake up so on Wednesday we could have hot pot. It went on for 5 minutes more with my younger aunt trying to use logic and reasoning and eventually just pulled her out of there. My mother just kept running her hand through her mother's hair while silently crying. I stood there absorbing it all in until the walls broke and tears started streaming down my own face. When it was time to leave, I kissed my grandmother on the forehead and said I'll miss her.
The rest of the day was spent preparing the funeral arrangements, having lunch, packing up the stuff at my grandma's apartment and with me crying myself to sleep on the sofa that I usually sleep on when I visit. The only peace I have is that grandpa escorted her and now they are in the fields with Max, watching him run around. Hopefully I'll see it someday as well.
R.I.P. Poon Lin Heung
6/16/1927 - 12/22/2008
A fine, compassionate mother to all.
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My condolencesPosted 12-22-2008 at 08:42 PM by webconnect
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Oh, man. I'm so sorry to hear that Tim. I know how it feels, my Grandmother passed away a couple years ago, it was really tough. After my parents got divorced she was like a mother to me. It was really hard letting her go. During Christmas isn't a good time but honestly no time is good to loose someone you really love. We can just hope that they're somewhere better and we'll see them again. Hang in there and again I'm sorry.
Posted 12-22-2008 at 08:43 PM by VTEC_THIS 
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Just went to my g-ma's funeral tonight.. It sucks man, sorry.Posted 12-22-2008 at 09:16 PM by cavillac
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I feel for you as well Tim, my grandfather passed away right after christmas (Jan 3 2007) we all are here for you. You'll be in my prayers this week!
-MattPosted 12-22-2008 at 10:20 PM by spooln4fun
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Nothing much to say about something like this. Of course you'll be in my prayers as well man...Posted 12-23-2008 at 06:27 AM by e85_4g63
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Sorry to hear about the sad news. My grandmother passed away and I didn't get to see her for the last time. I knew she was getting old and ill but I missed that opportunity to visit her before she passed away. Whatever happened in the past, let it go. It is very hard right now for you to deal with the situation but time will cure all wounds. Pray pray pray!
PS. Winter is taking a toll on old people. Every passing Winter really weaken them alot.Posted 12-23-2008 at 07:09 AM by 4gsx63
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My condolences and prayers go out to you and your family. I'm sorry for your loss.Posted 12-23-2008 at 07:47 AM by EventsCo21XL
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My grandpa passed away a few months ago. Sometimes I think I respected him even more than my parents. It's really hard to lose someone who means so much. I'll keep you in my prayers.Posted 12-23-2008 at 08:32 AM by adm2204
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Thank you everybody for the kind comments. I'm still taking it all in. Every time I think of her lying on the hospital bed, it hits me that she's really gone. It's not like the other times where she'll be back and kicking it again. My cousin is coming in from HK tomorrow for the wake. I'm happy in a way since I haven't seen her in forever. But the fact she's coming for the wake is sad.Posted 12-23-2008 at 10:01 AM by crimsondragon
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My grandpa passed recently, and it was horrible..sorry to hear about your loss man, Your in my prayers as well as everyone else.Posted 12-23-2008 at 06:30 PM by BigSorn
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Im sorry to hear about your loss. I know how hard it can be, I lost my little brother 8 years ago. I dont know if it gets easier or you just find away to cope with it. But I wish the best for you and your family.Posted 12-23-2008 at 06:55 PM by dsb97gst
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I am soo sorry for your loss, i know exactly how it feels to lose a grandparent.Posted 12-23-2008 at 08:51 PM by divaDSM
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u are not the only one that is having bad holidays. I just lost my mom on nov 21 she was 48 and had nothing wrong with her and on september the 22 my younger brother called and said somthing was wrong with her that night we found out she had three brain anyerisumes and one had busted they done surgery in u of l witch is about 2 hours away. we could only afford to go about twice a week. I went up on the 21st with my brother and sister and spent the whole day with her and they told us that she was doing really good we came home about 6 and at 10 till 12 they called and said that they had found her i her room not breathing and they was working with her and by the time we got there she had past away so we ended up puting her in the ground the day before thanksgiving. hang in there all u can pray and know that they are in a better place. my thoughts and prayers are with uPosted 12-23-2008 at 10:22 PM by jjneat1179
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She looked like a lovely lady whos seen a lot. My condolences.Posted 12-24-2008 at 12:54 AM by kottyking
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as with everyone else I am sorry to yea about your loss sir. We all know our time will come, but never want it to when it does. You and your family will be in my families prayers.Posted 12-24-2008 at 03:23 PM by airmail96
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I feel for you loss, and you have my condolences.
It is awful to lose a family member. I lost my grandfather on Dec. 22, 2005, and that was one of the worst Christmas' ever. I still remember everything vividly to this day, and still get sad every now and then, especially around the 25th.
All I can say is, that it will get better eventually, and even if she is gone, she will not be forgotten.Posted 12-25-2008 at 10:35 AM by TalonTSiGuy
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I to feel your loss, my condolences.
You and your family will be in my prayers.Posted 12-25-2008 at 10:31 PM by Colt90tsi
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Sorry to hear man.Posted 01-03-2009 at 12:51 PM by andy4g63
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Sorry to hear dude.....light one up and see what happens usually that will get you relaxed an think bout the good timesPosted 01-07-2009 at 09:49 AM by sniperelite
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sorry 2 hear manPosted 01-07-2009 at 07:08 PM by shotmaster2g
